brokenpurplecrayon

wow.

i realize i use that word a lot, but truly, right now, it encompasses the entirety of what i’m feeling.

as with most of my most interesting opportunities, i have had a lot room to grow & learn more about myself.  the demands that have come with this new position have taught me a few things about myself:

• i am a procrastinator.  i tend to put off the ‘little things’.  oh how quickly ‘little’ things avalanche into ‘BIG’ things!  i’m trying to get better at doing the little things as they arise, instead of allowing them to fester and grow.
• i have SO much in my life to be thankful for!  in a time and economy where so many are struggling, i have blessings many can only hope for.  i have a job i love.  i work with some of the most amazing people.  i make a difference every day. i have a home and lots of things in it.  i have four pets that bring me joy and unconditional love. i have a partner who challenges me to grow and be better – and loves me while i do it!  i have my health, which improves more and more every day! and i can say, with confidence, that i have some of the most incredible people on the planet as my friends.
• i live in PARADISE! seriously. i can drive over a bridge and have a surfside picnic with the salty clean breeze, beautiful water and sky, and gorgeous sun … for FREE!  most everyone else has to get in a plane, rent a car, and book a hotel just to enjoy what i can have every day if i want.  sweetie and i are going to try to take more advantage of what we literally take for granted on a daily basis.
• exercise makes me feel so much better than not exercising. i need to move.  i need to sweat and turn my brain off – even tai chi isn’t always enough.  i need to be so focused on my muscles and the movement that i can shut the thought processes down.  meditation is important, but this is more a matter of short circuiting the brain than consciously quieting it. endorphin rush.

and joy of joys, my sweetie is coming back to herself, and therefore back to me!  her interests and passions are kicking in and our little home is feeling the full force of her creativity! i’ll let her tell you more about what she’s up to when she’s ready.  but she’s BACK!!