brokenpurplecrayon

wow.  i had no idea i was so stressed.  i realized recently that i had little to no ability to deal with social interactions or regular work stress.  everything was making me irritable and cranky.

this weekend i shut down.  saturday, we went to our monthly potluck and i barely raised my head or had a conversation.  sunday, i was even more shut down.  i spent time in my ‘quiet room’, napped, and generally stayed home and under the social radar.  today, i went to work after my eye exam, to find that the computer network was down.  after 2 hours, i couldn’t find anything else productive to do, so i took vacation time.

i came home, spent some time doing little things around the house, then decided to go to the beach.  i don’t generally ‘go to the beach’ but i was craving the quiet.  i laid out my towel and little umbrella and chilled.  the beach was fairly deserted – except for some tourists not far from me.  they were teen girls and insisted on trying to feed the seagulls – to get some pictures.  what they did NOT expect is that seagulls are aggressive.  there were several incidents of Tippi Hedren impersonations.

a car wash later and a few more little household chores, my sweetie came home from work.  she sensed my still stressed out vibe and took me out for japanese & vietnamese food.  i filled my belly with sushi, sashimi, and other fabulous yumminess.

so, my plan is to watch Heroes, and then curl up in bed with Wislawa Szymborska‘s poetry and my Puddy cat. a long night of sleep and hopefully i will be back to my fabulous, wonderful, and loving self.

so, if i’ve seemed a little antisocial lately, there’s the explanation!